Hey, I miss you.
I know you do.
Then why did you leave?
Because I had to.
Seriously? That’s your best line?
What if that is the truth?
That doesn’t justify you leaving me.
But I wasn’t leaving you; I still am not. I just left life.
And ours wasn’t connected.
Was it?
You tell me?
May be it was in ways I didn’t understand then.
It definitely was. Isn’t that why I miss you?
You miss who I was to you…
Wasn’t that you?
It was, and it wasn’t.
I know that now, but you know, I really didn’t know then.
I know.
I didn’t know you needed me.
I hear you.
Why didn’t you tell me you needed me?
I didn’t know how else to say it.
Meaning you already did?
Didn’t I?
Did you?
I don’t know anymore.
Neither do I. You know, I am bad at interpreting gestures. May be I missed your gestures.
May be you did.
You should have used words.
May be I should have. May be I couldn’t.
Don’t you remember?
It was so long ago.
It hasn’t been very long you know. I mean if more time has passed, shouldn’t this pain heal?
Didn’t it already heal?
Does it hurt like this if you heal?
I guess you could think of it like a bone breaking. A lot of pain until you start walking again.
I don’t know what I want more – to sit down or to start running with my broken bones and all.
You know how bones heal?
Like every other thing.
Yes, but with rest and exercise.
I think I want to sleep now.
Okay. Close your eyes then.
You have to go away first.
Why?
I can’t dream with your voice in my mind.
So I am a nightmare now!
No, just something I don’t know what to do with, anymore.
…
Hey, you know, I miss you too.
Do you?
You know I do.
I wish you did.
Then?
You wouldn’t go.
I am still here.
But you are not real.
No I am not.
I wish you were…. Hello? You there?
I am already gone, stupid. Who are you still talking to? Shh. Don’t answer. Just close your eyes and go to sleep. Tomorrow, you’ll see, everything will be okay.
Promise?
Amar Shobdo 