Recently, the topic of marriage came up. It’s been coming up for a while now. But I have been shoving it back inside the bottle the best I can. But like a genie, once it’s out, it’s out.
The question I often end up answering is, what am I looking for in a life partner. Does he have to be tall? Well educated? Independent? Employed? And the weirdest thing is, as important as those might be to some, no one seems to ask who do I need to complement who I am?
I am looking for someone with whom I can make this world a better place for my daughters to be. Someone, who acknowledges that the world is not a fair place. Yet. But who wants to work with me to bring changes. Who doesn’t think it’s beyond my means to alter how society is at it’s core, but who knows that the very heart of society lies at home. Who knows, change begins at home. Who doesn’t relegate me to what he considers, or what this society considers, to be a woman’s job. Who doesn’t let gender roles dictate our marriage.
I don’t need someone as educated as I am, I don’t need someone who earns more than me. Or someone who can take care of my bills. Those were necessities of a time when women were not allowed to fend for themselves. When they didn’t have the right to be their own person, cast their own votes, have any say on how to shape the world in which they would raise their family. We do not belong to those times anymore, so why are our expectations tied to the realities of an outdated era?
I want someone who feels this fight in their bones, the way I do. Someone who is willing to accept there is a problem. And then willing to do what it takes, so that the future doesn’t hold the same problems. Who understands that our choices reflect and create the future of our next generation. Someone, who sees that society has an antiquated approach to most things, and doesn’t let the fear of what others will say, to rule over what he knows is right. Who doesn’t need me to help him make up his own mind.
Women don’t have the privilege of not fighting, of ignoring the constraints of this world. There is a saying in Bangla, that roughly translates to this – ghosts’ foot prints are backwards. This world is a ghost foot print, turned backwards. If we don’t push it forward, it will go back on its own. And that is a price we should not accept so easily.
So yes, it will be hard to defy what everyone thinks is acceptable. But I am looking for someone who is not afraid. Someone who knows, that this fight is worth fighting. Who knows, it is so tempting to take the easy way, to let society and it’s norms dictate our lives, to go with the flow. But who also knows that sometimes taking The Road Not Taken is the only way to go to place that has never existed before.